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• This lady w a backpack on the skytrain won't even move to allow an old lady onto a seat. No manners. #

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This was a depressingly wonderful movie.

I can’t get that first few minutes out of my head. I feel like the same thing is happening to me. So many things are getting in the way of my life’s dreams. Am I waiting too long ? Am I postponing my dreams too long? Will it be too late by the time I get to experiencing those dreams in real life?

Tonight, I conceded that perhaps, “Departures” would have to be the extent of those many travels I desperately want to go on. Then, I said words that I never, ever thought I would say, “Just being realistic.”

• "Some geek in the basement calculates the Probability of the default of risky bonds. We use it to determine the expected cash inflow". LOL #
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• "You can create more beautiful graphs on excel than I can. My graphs are more useful, but yours are prettier. " – Prof #ptmba2010 #
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• Free Frank's Red hot sauce, Robson @ Thurlow #

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It’s 1:15 in the morning an d everyone is fast asleep. I just can’t get to sleep. Tonight, I just can’t shake this feeling that there’s something more to life than this.

Perhaps with school on hiatus for the summer I can figure it out. I haven’t been at home much, had to miss church a few times due to class. Maybe I’m just burnt out and I need a vacation. Or, at the very least some regular sleep.

I’m tired. But I am glad that we were able to make it so far. I say “we” because it’s not just me that’s going through the struggle. It certainly not easy to be the wife of a student and the ,other of four small children. I think, no, I know she has the tougher job. And she has been so patient and kind to me in spite of all my absences. Sometimes it feels like I spend more time at the bat cave on Robson Square campus than at home. And yet she still smiles when I get home.

I cannot afford to fail her. She has sacrificed so much for me.

At the same time , I need to figure things out. What is my passion? What do I enjoy doing the most? How can I parlay that into my career? My life? How can I make it enough to support a family of six?

Tough questions, certainly. But essential for a satisfying and fun career.

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• First time having Tom yum soup! Wow! Amazing! Why haven't I had this before? #

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While sitting at Church a couple of days ago, a sudden pain just underneath the left breast hit me. Hard to breathe, as if something was literally stabbing me in the heart. It only lasted for a couple of minutes. I stood up and I felt better after a few seconds.

The doctor said it was nothing more than acid reflux.

For a couple of days though, I was wondering whether it was a heart attack. Wow. 34. And I’m wondering if I’m having a heart attack.

Lots of things came into my mind the past couple of days. Am I on the right track in my life? Am I treating my wife and children as I ought to? Am I wasting my time on frivolity? Should I leave school and spend more time with the family? Should I ask to be released?

Funny. When you’re not facing death, you tell yourself, “when I die, I’ll be calm, I’ll be cool, collected. I’ll understand it’s my time.”

But for a couple of days, I was anything but. I felt, “It was not my time. Why now? I have so much to do! What about my wife? My Kids? How will they survive?”

It was a big relief to know it was a benign reaction to not eating the entire day.

Am I happy? No.

Am I chasing something that is of little worth? I don’t know.

When will things get better?

Then today, I ran into the following clip:

I realized that it’s just another gooch crucible. It’ll be ok after awhile. Things will be fine. I just have to go through it.

Life does get better. And I need to look forward to that, instead of the scary, the discouraging and the like. I need to look forward to when I am done, the next vacation, the coming weekend, or even the coming evening with my family.

It’ll be ok.

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• Sick. Going home. Hopefully straight to bed. #

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It’s strange. I actually have a few minutes of quiet to think. Not about accounting ratios or four frames of leadership, but about things that really matter. Things like, am I doing good job as loving husband? As a good father? A member of the church? A brother? A son? A friend?

Life has gone by so fast for me the past ten years of blogging my life. There is very little time to reflect. Looking back, there really is a lot of room for improvement. And still, the people that I care about the most are still here. Particularly my wife and particularly my children.

Sure, they don’t really have a choice, but I know they still love and care about me in spite of my recent absences.

I can do better. I just hope that as I fill my time with all of these things expected of me that I continue to have a peaceful and kind heart to all that I come into contact with. Yes, the temptation is there to think, “I give up.” or “None of this really matters anyway”. Or to give into the frustration of not having enough time. But those feelings are neither productive nor true. I pray for strength to enjoy the time, however limited, to learn, grow progress and to bring my wife and children along with me for the journey, with a happy heart and a peaceful countenance.

I need to re commit to enduring it well.

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• Spent several hours testing only to realize that I forgot to replicate the program. Back to the office I go. #
• Ok. NOW I'm done. #
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